Friday, October 30, 2009
Post Adoption Depression: Thought for the Day 1
Ugh. I don’t feel like sitting down and writing about Post Adoption Depression.
It’s too depressing.
That was a joke.
Since I promised, I’ll write smaller snippets. The thought of putting together a whole essay is too much.
So here’s the first snippet:
Post Adoption Depression: Thought For The Day:
"I’m not a good enough mother. I was so lucky to be given a healthy, happy, beautiful little girl, and I should feel “over the moon” about that. The fact that I don’t feel over the moon means there is something very wrong with me. After all, I worked my butt off for this to happen. I filled out tons of paperwork, spent my life savings, traveled across the world, took 3 months off without pay, all to make this happen and to bond with this little one. She deserves someone who is over the moon. She deserves someone who’s eyes light up every time she enters the room. She deserves someone who will play with her all the time, or at least, more than I play with her. She deserves someone who doesn’t wish for “me time” as much as I crave it. I feel guilty that I pine for alone time. I was alone and taking care of my own needs for 39 years. It's a shock it’s all about her needs from now on.
Post Adoption Depression Recovery Thought For the Day (so as to not wallow, because everyone hates a wallower):
"I am a good enough mother. I take care of all of Charlie’s needs, and many of her wants. I am lucky to have her, and she is lucky to have me. Out of all the mothers on earth, God saw fit to put us together, therefore it was meant to be. I’m the only mother she has, and I do enough for her. This is a good thing, and a wonderful partnership."
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