Sunday, February 22, 2009
Having surgery next week.... might be gone for a bit.
Hopefully not longer!
Some of my readers, those who have known me for awhile, might also know that I tend to "go there" in my head, to the worst case scenario (see post on air travel a month back for evidence of this type of thinking) (or this post). Anyhoo... I am having surgery this week and so where do you think my head has gone?
Banana peel on the operating room floor, surgeon with sudden-onset-Parkinson's, accidents on the way to or from the hospital, clotting.....
Actually, given my catastrophizing nature, I must be one of the bravest people I know. Seriously. Maybe it sounds like I'm bragging, but I' hope not. Because although I truly believe my plane will crash, I still get on it. That's pretty courageous, don't you think? If you KNEW it was going to crash??? And you got an ANYWAY? Or maybe it's just DUMB! And even though I truly believe something will jump in front of my car on the highway, I still drive to work everyday. And even though I truly believe something will go wrong with the surgery, I'm going to show up on the gurney. Having a brain like this is a huge handicap that I try to overcome. If I didn't force myself, I'd probably never leave the house. You know that saying "You're your own worst enemy"? Never truer in my case!
This weekend has been the SLOWEST weekend ever. I'm trying not to think of all the things that could go wrong, and instead I'm just tying to distract myself. I'm watching a lot of movies, I've taken the dogs out on a leash both days, I've packed. I've watered the plants. I've read two books. I've read every blog in the universe.... I find it very hard to believe it's only 1:30 PM on Sunday.
So, if you are religious, please say a prayer for me?
If you are not religious, please send some positive vibes into the universe for me?
I'll be back online as soon as I'm feeling better.
P.S. I have made arrangements and given the password to this blog to my father (in a letter he will find upon my demise) so he will inform you if I haven't survived. I'm telling you, I really worry about this stuff and I'm nothing if not prepared.
P.P.S. Don't worry, arrangements for the dogs were made years ago, I bought myself life insurance for them.
P.P.P.S Please leave me comments, it'll give me something to do while recovering.